Sunday, June 14, 2009

In a Flash

I had pulled a chair out back and was sitting and enjoying the peaceful climate surrounding me. I had already watered the grow boxes and roses, and was keeping my cat company while he sat before me chewing on a particularly long blade of grass. Dusk was falling and I could hear birds in the trees around me, as well as the occasional twin-engine airplane flying overhead. It was just so nice.

And then in a flash you were there with me. I was holding you in my arms again as though I had never let you go. Your cheeks were that same glorious shade of pink that they were the last day I saw you, and so soft. And warm. I was holding you close to me, touching your face and admiring how handsome you were.

Then I was alone again, and my arms were empty.

I just started mumbling, “my baby, my baby,” to myself over and over again. And then the tears came.

Some days are harder than others. I guess this has been one of them.


  1. I'm sorry you had a rough day. At least no one cut off your foreskin! Kidding. Hang in there.

  2. Thanks Libby. Of course, now I feel like an idiot because I realized this morning WHY I was all emotional. Ugh.

    It's like my body is saying, "WELCOME BACK! I hope you enjoyed your year-long hiatus but the circle of life goes on and SO DOES YOUR CYCLE."

    I can't believe I forgot what it's like to have a cycle.

  3. *hugs*

    and welcome back to the cycle!

    mine has become this weird DMS thing: During Menstrual Cycle. It's like roving pms...sometimes it's the week before, sometimes it's during, sometimes it's the entire month...although I may just be being a bitch :)

  4. Holy Hannah! I hope mine decides to be a regular cycle because it sure took long enough to become one in the first place. I know, TMI... but SERIOUSLY.

    *beaming* thanks.